I can’t really explain what happens when I get that neulasta shot but I’ve been confined to my bed since I received it on Thursday afternoon. I’ve been napping a lot and not eating or drinking much and feeling like crap. Most likely I won’t make it to the office on Monday. Hopefully Tuesday. If I wanted to, I could pull all of my hair out without it even hurting. I have five more of these left. Motherfucker (sorry Mom). Aydin loves me because I’ve become very exaggerated in all bodily functions. I’m super fart man.
2008.10.28
Back on the Chemo Train
Well, I feel much different today. More like crap than not. My symptoms are increasing in severity and some new ones are cropping up. My feet feel like they are asleep all the time making it difficult to walk. My hair is still coming out. I might need to shave and wear a hat. I’m having nose bleeds and I was super sensitive to the cold and rain today but then it was really cold, about 39 when I was released. I saw my primary physician today and he agreed that we still need to watch for spasms as the chemo accumulates in my body but we will respond reactively instead of proactively meaning if I have a spasm, then they will up my meds. Which is probably OK because if I do have another spasm now, it should be manageable and not severe like previous ones. The accumulation is gradual so it should be fine. I just took an ativan to help me sleep, to put myself out of my misery. So probably won’t be saying much more. Will try to work tomorrow. The bad days seem to be Thursday after disconnect, which will be 1:30 for me, and Friday is the worst. I’ll keep you updated. Maybe I can just dance the side effects away. We wish you nothing but: LOVE, PEACE AND SOUL! It’s the SOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUL TRAIN!
