During my chemotherapy, I have turned forty, Christmas has been celebrated, and Thanksgiving, and Halloween, my daughter turned 9, Barack Obama was inaugurated; and there are events yet to occur, Easter, Aydin will turn 7, Christina and I have our fifteenth anniversary. For all of these milestones, I have been or will be on chemotherapy and may still even have cancer, and this saddens me somewhat. I don’t want to be this way or feel this way, but this is the way I am. And, I want to be around for all the other milestones to come, which is why I carry on.
Session number nine began today. I have had four weeks off since my last session which has given me a new energy I wouldn’t have had otherwise, and I am grateful for that. This same time last session, I would have still been asleep in an eight-hour nap. So much for that! I feel better than I have in weeks although not “normal” by any means, but as far as being on chemo, it’s pretty good. My hope is that this respite has allowed me to finish chemo on a more energetic note and may even reduce the time it takes for me to recover from chemo which my doctor tells me should be about two months. But, of course, in my case, that may not happen as he says.
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What impresses me is that, through all of this, you’ve still managed the heart and will to keep up on this blog.
That’s hard enough to do even without being regularly wiped out by chemotherapy.
Comment by Chris — 2009.01.21 @ 7:15 am
Jesus, you are 40? I can’t imagine what that must be like…so old!
Comment by Shawn — 2009.01.26 @ 2:56 pm
Hey Ray-nigma,
Glad you had a little break and that it gave you some energy. Every little bit must help.
peace
Shannon
Comment by Shannon — 2009.01.28 @ 6:05 pm